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I was trying to explain to a friend tonight that Berlin has a "dark vibe" (I have left,. by the way). I also explained that since I lived there I became of aware of "dark energy" which I didnt experience before, or at least not in the extent that I could put my finger on it. So yes of course Berlin is trash for any intuitive people HOWEVER it does help you identify your intuition in a way because of the extremes of the place, you can really see some of the darkness that exists in some people and in certain locations.
That dark energy is multiple waves of intergenerational trauma, smothered behind a deeply conservative culture that fails to acknowledge its own conservatism, and where gaslighting is a reflex. In a repressed culture, people imagine that freedom = degeneracy. So in their worldview, you can either be super repressed and conservative, or you can trash everything and care about nothing. I'm becoming convinced that Germans, on some level, associate clean streets, energy and ambition with the nazis, and they literally cannot imagine it in any other context. Berlin is like the child of a really broken up father, who knows nothing except he REALLY doesn't want to be his father, but he's also afraid that any path he might go down will doom him to become his father. So he just lays around doing drugs all day and doesn't commit to anything.
You can even see it very simple. Normal reality is where you feel and act on that (true source). Everything else is not even real because you rejected the true origin. It's amazing how this can be so hard to grasp. As long as people see their feelings as weak they are denying the very thing that makes them shine or that makes them a man. How can a feeling be weak is the question. It might appear so but how could it. You can only have a legit reason, and this is the basic thing while there is a being out of touch with one obvious true self. The rest is mind nonsense, reversed energy from unfelt things that makes you think trash and have a thin connection because all those unfelt things are in the way blocking your light, which is btw the default.
That is though only one half of the medal, in a way. While it is true surely. Meaning it doesn't really lead to a solution, while it can though very well do that. If you know you're not weak and cry like a child, that can do a lot. When you take it serious. Or in other words our feelings are often confused. A simple example: really just an example. Let's say you were to go into a supermarket and at the entrance area there is 2 paths. Usually you would go the right way and expect people who are leaving the store to go left. So let's say you are not feeling well and you are about to go right but the lane is full, so you go left but you feel upset. This is where it can be confused while you can still feel upset. It is very legit. And this is where we doubt our feelings so often, think it was weak and it's true, it cannot ever be weak. You would actually not be upset for having to go left. That is the confusion. So you would actually overact that, in order to express yourself. And whoever is stupid enough to believe you were upset for such a thing, to having to go left, will then see that this is not the case. Often what we see in a totality was only merely the beginning of an expression. Same as with...I see this situation quite frequently, Idk about you. You walk kind of middleish and ahead of you, somebody else. You walk to ther side, which is social and especially not weak. But the person walks into another street to the left. And you feel like kinda upset or dumb because you just walked over and they didn't even go that way. Were you careless? Because didn't you assume a way to go for this person? Who says they wouldn't go there? No you were not. They were either passive aggressively careless or maybe! tried to let you know that they would go left by not interacting at all. But does it matter as for how you feel? No. So you wanna express about it. How would you do so? You would very likely walk a bit back over and this feels bad but it is actually just the start of an expression. Because you would actually just walk on, and you might and good for you because it's no thing. But if it was something then you would "feint"/overact to walk back over afterwards to then angrily undo that. Not to be confused with feeling upset for real and then reactively angry doing so, while you could indeed see, that the other one cannot differentiate the two, so you could still take it as that page. We so often strive to get back to how it was when everything was good. You'd just walk on, what's the big deal. But if it affected you, guess what, you wanna express about it. About this dumbness. And to walk over again, after you walked (in vain so to speak, really just so to speak) to the right, is merely a way, the start of a way to express how you feel. So often (I might be wrong and it doesn't matter, it would still be good to feel so. Then the other one would not get it.) people believe that stuff. They believe you to be upset and this is outrageously dumb. So your anger or how to express would go such way. Moreover the person likely was passive aggressive and you could tell by their lack of all the stuff they usually would do if they would walk past you (it is btw not my fault that it sounds complicated). You could take that as a read and be like thanks for letting me know. You can test also with all that. Just test it. See for yourself.
Another situation: If somebody is not doing their social part and walks on and you happened to walked over, then first of all that is not weak. In general the rule is to stay with a feel and what somebody else does is effectively! (as orientation) an attempt to throw you off your feel. You would give them the whole way. Staying true to yourself, for why you walked over. You would not lie and be like walking back and meddle. You might. Nothing wrong with an angry bump if all that isnt available. Just saying. But it's low you know. The level. Your anger wouldn't be low though. I was doing something where I would minimally evade. It effectively seemed like a feint but I just saw that it doesn't need much if both do their part, and I would then walk on. But if somebody would keep walking on, that is a provocation then. What do you do? React towards him? Leaving your innocent page? losing touch to what you did? Feels pretty off. Person appears above. On the other side walking over feels submissive. But only after not doing the reactive thing. Anyway, the way your anger would express here is by feinting to react, getting such juices wet, and then pull over. It is not a feint at all btw, it is part of anger. (Or it could also be that you feel to not walk over in a situation where people come from work and walk all over the place in their little groups, because you're just having enough, you don't wanna, but then you also don't feel to bump. One after the other and you would been very true to yourself.)
So that got a bit more complicated than I expected but you can see the basic thing here in each of the situation and how it relates to what I wrote initially in the above post. It's no trickery, it is anger. It is expressive. You might say it is fun also. It rings true because you were not ever upset for having to go left in the first example. Or let's say - and I am not sure if this one is actually true - somebody leaves a wagon in middle of a lane in a supermarket. And he didnt happen to do that, it was intentional into his environment where he learned he could do so. So you wouldnt really be angry while I did also just shove it away. The normal response would be: Could you get your wagon out of the way? but such people tend to take that as something they provoked. So you might treat them kindly. And like take them as somebody who doesnt feel well and like kindly push their wagon. I am just trying to make the point of staying with your feel /direction. they likely would go like: Can you not say something?! you know it's like either way you can't do it right. But what is up here is the person roots for a specific reaction, leaving them completely nonbackedup. You might continue to be kind. I am sorry. Maybe that is all one would say. It btw would not be of something submissive, because you intially were already kind (above) and merely proceed doing so. That is just an idea. I don't know how that would look like in reality while again I meant to mainly make that one point. As an orientation of where your page should be. So you can see, it isn't really about to not react. That maybe is a coping way, that has its merits but you already feel a certain way.
I forgot one thing. This "feint" is not something that is like required to do. It is rather something you could do after! you for example walked your part over, you see somebody walks on, you walk more over. And while you could so so, you also could express anger (that naturally wants to express which is why we tend "to react") by - before you keep going your way - drift a bit into that reactive nonsense to angrily make him believe so, to assert what that always only had been. To then walk on your way. I mean this is how it appears to me, if I walk over socially and somebody walks on, that doesn't make me weak. I never meant to meddle for the way to be all mine. Why the fuk would I do so. So it is not about to submit here, but I feel it is about to assert your reality, and that is where all the feelings are. It might just be that his movie affected one, so sometimes we need to get things off our chest a bit first. I mean Idk if it's true, but walking more out of the way feels like saying no to something. And it beautifully gets highlighted by the thing that the way (pavement) doesn't even matter.
And just for clarity. I mean a bully type of person who wants to bully you out of your way, not somebody provoking a fight. The bully type of person feeds off this "reaction" of like getting back into his way, fighting from below or whatever. And I really think it is true that this reaction always only was a beginning part of what it actually meant to be. Something expressive, meaning not something impressive. We so easily so to speak throw things away, baby bathwater like.
This overact is actually not a overact. I think it starts with the way you actually really feel initially. I can't put my finger on it, it's certainly not ironical. And then by overacting this it shows itself as the untrue thing it is. I'm sorry I have no idea what that actually is. I mean I can see we often were hiding ways of how we didn't even truly feel. I think it's like overacting your first impulse and effectively it's like a feint, but it's no feint. It's like not repressing feelings based on untrue things. But still feeling them, but then overacting that by which it will relievingly appear false. Maybe this. But Idk exactly. Because you might feel light and then you might playfully do that. I remember now it also felt fun. Or you might feel angry and then the same is angry. Where you don't stop feeling angry, it's not interrupted by this situation and you don't feel upset at all but somebody might believe it you were. Something like that, I got no idea exactly.
If you really have to stay in Germany, go further west. Still not a cosmopolitan English-speaking area but compared to Berlin it's like night and day. Berlin is just for starving forever-students and party people.
Germans love to play the mental bullying games. The poop is tiresome and hilarious. I’m just sick of having to deal with these people’s mental problems on a daily basis. You wear ANYTHING they believe doesn’t fit the narrative of this stinking city. They will stare, stare, and stare some more. You dress up man/woman the people will just stare like some backwoods country hicks. I’m fully convinced large portions of the population has undiagnosed mental health issues. Absolutely! Now we have a pandemic which means I’m stuck here a little longer. Since other countries are still in the shits right now that means I’m not going anywhere. Not to many jobs are hiring in other countries and just trying to move right now is a bad idea. When I finally leave I won’t visit or talk about this devils jerk country again.
Einstein said to watch out for the new Nazis.
wilsonweb.physics.harvard.edu/HUMANRIGHTS/Einstein_Letter_Warning_Of_Zionist_Facism_In_Israel.html
You'll notice on CV-19 vials, it says mRNA, this explains mRNA, (click link).
I wonder how many of Bill Gates' ''vaccines' are in each dose.
www.cdc.gov/coronavirus/2019-ncov/vaccines/different-vaccines/mrna.html
A good place to live if you have no ambition and no future goals but to “live in the moment”
A good place to live if you have an ugly face.
Main Problem with Germans and German speaking countries:
1) Racist
2) Uebermensch and Schadenfreude - they love to put foreigners down to feel bey.
3) No morals
4) Not like normal humans
They take pleasure Germans in only one thing: dehumanising others to make their worthless selves feel better. They are humans and no one would live in Germany were if not for the jobs.
Dirty Nazis. That's it!
germans dont make any sense. they hate americans because they stopped the war. they stopped the war due to this very same behaviour germans exhibit towards them. Its a good thing they have been kept in check. If it was up to most of them all auslanders would be killed same way as before, gas chamber. so all they can do is keep up the same attitudes which led them into trouble in the first place, and get their kicks off of being so pooping verbally. I shudder to think what would happen if they had any more leeway.
Is this satire? xD Hope so, otherwise its really sad.. xD
Chermany is only good for Welfare, can`t Blame Migrants here who live on welfare at least they know how to milk this country.
The less I interact with them, the better my life is. I have lived in many countries and I always had locals as friends. Here I just want expats. They know how to enjoy life and we make fun of cherms together
They are so delusional. They hate all their close family and friends, dont have children but pretend to be so social with complete strangers such as asylum seekers and to be happy to pay ridiculous income tax for a "good cause". I have never experienced a less social society
so true.They have no friends.no family.no spouse.ni kids.Look down the value of them and regards as stupid old fashoned uncool.Behave extrely self centered casual sex bi sexual drink drug smoke alll day with Techno music in dirty flat(but they think it is art) is the best life and meanungful.
I am an artist. I want to get a visa to the USA. I know right now everything is closed. But for future. How do I go about doing this? For as much as I can see, I would only be eligible to apply for 6 month visas. I am not at the level where I can apply for a 3 year visa, but I feel 6 months isnt enough time. Do you know which visa is best? Another way I can get in? In terms of work, I only have unskilled labour jobs, not enough that will grant me entry. I could apply for the F1 student visa but I dont have that kind of money to apply for a masters at an american school at the moment.
Maybe coronavirus is what Berlin needs. There aren’t any distractions and the expats can’t go on and on about how amazing it is, how Berlin is their entire personality. They will see german society for what it actually is. No distractionS.