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Guys, I don't think I'm going to make it through this winter. I think that every year, but I've now given up all hope that things are ever going to improve for me. And the worst part is that I have wasted so much of my life in Berlin that I'm in my 30s and have no semblance of a career or anything to look forward to. I'm worried if I move home things will be even worse and that I'll end up on the street. Suicide seems like the only sane solution at this point. I'm not writing this for sympathy or in hopes that people say "don't do it" and all that. Take this as a warning to GTFO while you're still young.
And by the way, if you're like me and you think to yourself "i'll just stick it out a little longer" in hopes that your next job is going to magically have decent coworkers or that after you finish your german degree program that things will be better then stop deluding yourself. I lied to myself for years that I could handle Berlin by going on frequent vacations with all the mandatory time off here. Well I enjoy my vacations but I have absolutely no joy in my daily life in Berlin and I hate every second of it. I fall in love with every other city I visit because this place is so bad. I can't even think straight anymore because I hate it here so much in this shithole.
It’s eerie, what you wrote at top is identical to my own story here. I have thought about offering myself. But I’m the kind of person who would go and murder the individuals who caused me pain first then I would off myself.Seriously no joke. I’ve had problems with my German managers and it got so bad I had thoughts of killing his ass. The thoughts freaked me out because I was freaking serious. I contemplated for a second if I could do it. I hated myself for thinking evil thoughts like that. And if you are like me going back to your home country is a bad idea. Pick a country you like, visit a couple times and decide if you want to go there. It’s not hard, once you start traveling and living in different countries the process becomes easy. If you lived in one country before then you know how it works. Remember, this whole situation is chess when one deals with these Nazis bastards. If anything, use your anger, hate, and rage as a weapon to fuel your desire to leave this place. If that means cheating and stealing from them to leave then do it. There is no right way to deal with Germans. But get that killing yourself poop out your head.
Don't die in Berlin. I am also struggling with those kinds of thoughts, I was very suicidal in 2018, then 2019 I was building myself back up again, then comes 2020 and it's like being back in the hardest times. Why don't you go check yourself into the Kriese dienst, maybe the hospital, then consider that it's okay to go back home and also many people get jobs by padding their resumes, especially when they have work experience in a foreign country. The 30's are a really hard phase of life and fuck-ups feel really big. Give yourself some credit.
I left three years ago and life is now very good. I live by the sea, own my own place earn > €100k. This all took time to accumulate but I don’t regret a thing.
Don’t top yourself in Berlin because it’s the equivalent of losing the special olympics. Even by identifiying that the place is a shithole, you’re ahead of 90% of people there.
Please don't do it.
Germans are not normal, mentalky weird and sick. Just leave by Feb-March when the weather warms up. You can go to another coumtry or your home coumtry. I'm getting out by March with a Super job offer. Life is full of surprises, Cheers bro!
Never trust these backstabbers. You deserve better.
Is being an artist really cool if your mommy and daddy are paying for your Berlin lifestyle? Last time I checked this was when scenes died
Nailed it, 15 years ago when real artists and other creative people came to Berlin from all over Europe, it was very interesting. Posing hipsters and lefty virtue-signallers destroyed the Berlin vibe, hasn't been creative for at least ten years, full of clones these days.
So surpeisingly I have found a new job, even a Good one during these mad times, although I actually wanted to leave and Go home to my country, where I probably wouldnt find a job at the moment!
What would you do? Leave alltogether to somewhere with uncertain future or stay here with a job where at least you have some stability, Even thouhgh you hate the place?
Germany's economy tanks least of all EU countries except maybe Sweden. If you're thinking of returning to somewhere else in the EU then it might be smart to wait it out here a bit if you've still got a job (and if you can stomach this place for another 6 months).
I cannot stand all the lefty fake sincerity, Berliners are mealy-mouthed frauds.
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Watch the video to the end to give a comment. I believe this video describes Germans and the weird foreigners who love it here so much. Encounters with both groups have made me research the topic in the video more in depth. Comments are welcome.
Why is it that germans, every time something horrific happens to you in Berlin, decide to gaslight you. “Wow I am so surprised that happened that Is not like Berlin at all”. Man shut up. I only lived in Berlin for two years, you’ve been here 15 or even your whole life. As if this is the first time you’re hearing of this shit. My all time favourite was when a black german told me he had never experienced racism in Berlin.
New York is the place to be. Sorry about that.
I have never seen so many lazy, stupid people in all my life. Do they all just die off? Where do they go once they reach a certain age ?
Do people really LOVE Berlin after ten years, or are they in denial ? Science wants to know
why do they wait to restock the supermarkets at rush hour? the shelves are empty and all the product is still in plastic-wrapped pallets. and no one can fit down the aisles at peak shopping times because the workers are dragging/leaving pallets everywhere. can't they figure out their logistics? I never saw this happen in my home country. so many times I have to make ANOTHER trip to the freaking store because they can't be assed to put bread and milk back on the shelves. I guess people have a high tolerance for walking away empty-handed from the groceries here. something about a wall?
Yes, so true. And these dumbfuckers will also run those hugeass floor sweeper machines during the last 30 minutes they're open despite the fact that the store is at its fullest at that point. These idiots would never even CONSIDER that it's a goddamned 0 IQ move. And God forbid they restock and clean up BEFORE or AFTER the darn store is closed. Then the boss might make 5EUR less per store per day or something.
why do they wait to restock the supermarkets at rush hour? the shelves are empty and all the product is still in plastic-wrapped pallets. and no one can fit down the aisles at peak shopping times because the workers are dragging/leaving pallets everywhere. can't they figure out their logistics? I never saw this happen in my home country. so many times I have to make ANOTHER trip to the freaking store because they can't be assed to put bread and milk back on the shelves. I guess people have a high tolerance for walking away empty-handed from the groceries here. something about a wall?
lmao in addition to my normal job i made about 5k extra last year doing freelance work. had to pay 2K in ADDITIONAL taxes on that. What a freaking joke Germany is.
The public sphere. Got on an Sbahn and this chimp cute me up as I get on and RUNS to a dear. The train was EMP TY. It’s preprogrammed in these monsters to be a dik. Then he sat down and panicked and looked at me and then ran to another place. Opportunism / fear / selfishness prevail here. I’m done.